So in my last post, I blogged about how I wanted my baby to be safe. Well, ironic how she wasnt this past weekend =( Le sigh. let me start.

Friday - its christmas eve! My favorite time of the year. Maddie just had pears and oatmeal for breakfast and we played christmas music as she ate. On a normal day, I change her clothes upstairs before I bring her down for her lunch. But on this day, since we were going to my inlaws, I didnt want to dirty her clothes for that night, so I fed maddie in her PJs and then I took her upstairs to change her and came back down. She was wearing her new "Cutie Pie" t-shirt. Why oh why did i change my normal routine?

On the way back down, I have no idea how I slipped, but as I approached the bottom floor (thank God I was so close to the end), my foot slipped out from under me, my back fell straight back onto the steps and so did Maddie's face. I wont get into the gross details bc I have repeated this story many times this past weekend. The bottom line is, I was frantic, ran upstairs to call Jae. He didnt even know what I was sayig, I Was talking so fast and hysterically that he ran out of the store. Before I got off the phone with him, he was already in his truck coming home. I took a look at maddies face and saw her eye swelling, called the Ped, who directed me to emergency room.

Long story short, ER was great, and Maddie was fine. All i could think about were the "what ifs". What if I had hit my head, passed out and she was awake alone? What if she had hit her eye and had permanent eye damage? What if I tumbled down the entire flight? What if I dropped her as I fell? I know I can't concentrate on the what ifs, but I couldnt help but to think about these things. In fact, that night i woke up at 5 am tossing and turning and thinking about these things. Every time I think about her head hitting the step, I close my eyes and cringe.

So anyway, I didnt end up going to my inlaws that night. They understood. They were concerned for Maddie. I sent a few pics of my poor babys face to family and friends. Everyone said "it doesnt look as bad as I thought it would". Of course my sister in law says "OMG Jess, its looks soooo bad! Keep putting ice on". Geez...even if it was true, no need to say it. Tacky!!! Sometimes honesty is not the best policy! you cannot hide behind "oh im just honest" all the time. Sometimes you have to have a little sympathy and empathy. She could have just said "Oh gosh...just keep icing it, hopefully the swelling will go down". to be fair, we did speak on the phone and she kept saying it was not my fault, these things happen, she was glad we were both okay etc etc... shes not trying to be mean, she just doesnt have common sense sometimes. moving on...

that day my grandma, brother and MAB came over to keep me company and I was sort of glad they did. I Sent jae back to work during his busiest day of the year.... even though he didnt want to leave. But it also made me feel uneasy being home alone with her on 24 hour watch. I was to watch her for any signs of her acting abnormal. I aint gonna lie when i say that everytime she cried, whined, or fussed, i didnt know if it was just her being a normal baby, or any trauma caused by the fall. That night, Jae came home relatively early. We gave Maddie and bath and all was well. She slept her usual 11 hours and life went back to normal.

Christmas Day - Merry Christmas!!! Maddie woke up and I was just so glad to see her alive and well and smiling, I was in such a good mood. I made bacon and eggs for breakfast, Maddie had apples and oatmeal. Jae and I exchanged gifts and I took pics of Maddie on her first christmas day.

Around 12:30, we headed to jersey to go to my cousins house. This 3-5 million dollar house that i love so much. Its beautiful. Maddie slept about 30 minutes in the car and i had to feed her mum mums the rest of the way so she wouldnt cry. hehe.

We had a great time with our family. Maddie was a good girl and being passed around like crazy. Everyone commented on her eye but everyone was very supportive and everyone said i didnt look bad.

We left around 8ish and maddie slept the whole way home. As we approached our street, there were MAD fire trucks all parked outside our house. I swear they were there for our house, but thank god they werent. Scared the shit out of me. I took maddie out of the car and put her right to bed. she knocked right out. And thus, her xmas was over.

The day after christmas - I'm a nutjob. I went to Target at 7:30 am to buy wrapping paper at the 50% off sale. LOL. I love the day after christmas sale at Target.



i then went to the market where it was packed!

came home, put maddie down for a nap and started preparing for my familys arrival.

this was a day i was looking forward to for some time. This is the day that really screams christmas for me. we cook, listen to christmas music, exchange gifts and just enjoy. i had a fun time and glad maddie could be a part of this yearly tradition. the gathering was cut short by the snow storm....

today its monday and we got about 20" out here. i really wanted to take maddie out in the snow but the windchill is horrendous. i dont know if its all the weekend commotion or not but she only slept 30 mins this morning (trhis is usually her long nap), an hour in the afternoon and 20 mins just now. wayyyy too little. last night she was up about 5 or 6 times from 7pm-11pm. she woke up a few times in the middle of the night as well. overstimulation? teething? growth spurt? who knows!

i leave you with a pic of my chunksters wrist, overflowing with fatty goodness.