been trying to write this forever but wow, its been super busy lately.

since starting solids, maddies poops have been harder, as i mentioned below lol. well the other day, i had the grossest experience to date. Maddie was playing and suddenly she just started whimpering. I picked her up and smelled poop so i took her upstairs to change her. She was still whimpering as I undressed her and in her diaper was this tiny triangle of poop. really small. so i figured she just wasnt used to harder poop coming out. im wiping her butt (she is still whimpering which she never does) and i feel pressure on my hand, as if she lifted her butt a little. but it wasnt her butt. i suddenly saw a stream of poop coming out her a-hole. as a newborn, poop is very liquidy and if she were to poop with her diaper open, it would spray/explode. now since her poop is harder, it comes out like frozen yogurt from a self serve machine. it came out in a long log, continuously and circled around, like putting froyo on a cone! it was soooo gross. she kept whimpering...so i wiped her butt. suddenly, another log started coming out. i wanted to gag, but i had to keep looking at her and smiling and saying "its ok". eventually it stopped but boy was i grossed out. baby poop, no problem. human poop is sooooo much grosser!

ok and last night, i was feeding maddie. between sucks, i sort of felt this pressure. i was thinking "did she just bite me?"... then suddenly, she paused and i felt it again! It wasnt a quick bite. it was a slow, deliberate chomp. as if she was experimenting. i gasped and my mouth was agape. i looked down and i swear she was smiling (it was dark since it was nighttime). i took her off my boob and put her on my other boob but i couldnt believe she did that. and i definitely felt teeth! omg.... so scary. luckily she didnt do it again on boob #2.

Gave Maddie bananas these past few days and she does not like it! i hate bananas too but i did force myself to put them into my morning shakes during pregnancy so its not like shes never "tasted" them before. maybe i thinned it out too much and theres not enough taste? dunno, but ill try apples tomorrow instead.

just went to BRU with maddie and she freaked. sigh. i just dont understand why she cant sit still in the cry without crying. so upsetting.

on the upside, this past weekend, i purposely took her out when it was naptime and she slept! I took her during naptime into queens and took her home during naptime coming home. she slept both times. thankfully, i can use this technique whenever i have a further distance to go. errands though, continue to be a great great challenge.