Another holiday come and gone. Christmas weekend was fun!

I am still feeling pretty good but I think hosting christmas wore me out just a bit. I felt fine the day of, but the next day, I cleaned in the morning and for the rest of the afternoon and night I was practically comatose. Totally dazed.

I did manage to run out and take advantage of some 50% off Christmas sales. After that, I came back and had severe constipation. This is TMI, but I was on the toilet for 30-45 minutes.... i was in so much pain, i have to assume this was the closest I would ever get to labor. It hurt so much but yet it wouldn't come out. I was huffing, puffing, doing pseudo-lamaze, took my pants off, prayed...everything. I won't get into the nasty details, because there are a few...however, I will say that once i was done, I was in heaven. I was sort of in shock as well. It was a relief. and certainly, i will continue to eat my fiber and water (which i slacked on the past few days due to the holiday meals)...so that that never happens again!

Well, after that whole ordeal, I went straight to take a nap. It was a 2 hour nap before jae came home and woke me up. i made us a little christmas leftover meal and just laid on the sofa for the rest of the night. We attempted to watch a movie at 9 but i quickly fell asleep and did not wake up till 7:30 the next morning. I think my body really needed a rest. My mind kept telling me to get up and keep cleaning and go do things, but my body was screaming for some relaxation. So i let me body take over and did nothing all night.

Aside from the bad constipation, I am very very absent minded these days. This pisses me off because I like to be on point. I like my lists, and I like to take care of everything at once. But lately, and I don't know if this has anything to do with pregnancy or not, I am very forgetful. I take twice as long to do something because I usually made a mistake somewhere along the way.

For example, one day, I was running around....of course, I cannot hold my pee in like I used to, so I had to make an emergency stop at home to pee. This annoys me as well bc I usually like to get to 5-6 places in one shot and then go home, but this pit stop holds me up. Anyway, I came home, peed and changed into some more comfortable clothes. I also switched jackets. I get to the supermarket and realize my shopping list (for christmas!) was in my other jacket at home. UGH! I hate not having my shoping list. So i had to go by memory and of course i forgot MAD stuff and had to go back to the market another day. Very annoying.

The other day I was tyring to find Sports Authority. I thought I knew where i was going but apparently not.... I went very far down Old Country Road. Only to turn around again.... It turns out, sports authority was right where i had left off... i wasted about half an hour of driving for nothing! the thing is, if i had just looked out the window, i would have seen it... i also had a suspicion it was right there, but for some reason, abesent mindedly drove way down. stupid move.

One day i also left my laptop at home....i drove to work, only to have to turn around again to pick up my computer.

I really hope this is the baby...and not me just losing my mind. I like to be efficient and not waste time. I like to get a lot of things done in one shot. This is all i know. If this has changed forever, I am not sure how I will cope. haha.