So here we are 2011. I can't believe the time has flown by like this! Just crazy.

On new years eve was SO uneventful. It was just a regular day for us. Jae was asleep by 9. I was asleep by 10. lol. But Maddie actually slept that night and didnt wake until about 5am, and she went back to sleep by herself by 5:30am.

New Years Day we headed to the Bronx. Maddie took a good nap in the car on the way there and woke up just as we got to the driveway. hooray. The kids did christmas gift exchange since we didnt make it christmas eve. That was fun... MAddie got a Step 2 Buggy and a ball popper. I asked for both... but little did I know the ball popper is the most loud and obnoxious gift. haha. The kids really enjoyed our presents as well... the best part of the night was when Ryan came up to me and said "I can't believe you got me Harry POtter Lego. Thank you...". it was so cute and about the 3rd time he thanked me.

Maddie was pretty good considering. I feel bad for Jaes parents... they dont know to deal with maddie yet so she cries everytime they hold her. Jaes dad, god bless his soul, loves this little girl so much. he comes running out of the house before we even get up the driveway. you can hear him calling her and laughing a mile away. but he is REALLY loud. and he picks her up and lets her legs dangle so he can look at her and laugh in her face and she just gets freaked out. The mom is just all up in her face jiggling and making whtever sounds she can to get maddie to smile.. but all it ends up in is tears. At least the sisters caught on... they take her, dont make a big deal out of it and let maddie look around.

BTW i definitely dont trust jaes mom now cuz she was about to give maddie this rice cookie thingy. she let maddie grab it and maddie was about to shove it in her mouth until jae literally had to swipe his hand in front of maddies mouth to block it. crazy woman.

we left when it was maddies nap time again and she slept again...that was the start of our new year.

I dont usually make resolutions but this year i thought i would since there is a lot i think i want to improve about myself.

1. To have more patience. I was never a patient person to begin with. Having a baby i thought would change that... but i guess you are who you are. I really need to learn to try though and have more patience with life and with Maddie. Sometimes, i need to just take a step back.

2. To be a better wife. I think i might have a hard time with this one... since having a baby, a mother only things about being a mother. the husband sort of takes a back seat. my first priority is the baby. everything i do and dont do, is because of the baby. But for a man, his priority is the entire family. so he can be both father and husband. i dont know why...maybe cuz he doesnt have that bond with the baby like a mother does, or maybe bc he doesnt do as much motherly things. all i know is, my focus is on the baby and jae is 2nd. id like to try to make them both equally as important.

3. I guess this is an overall theme going on here...but id like to try to see the big picture more often. Sometimes I get so wrapped up in the small things, i forget what the bigger picture looks like. For example, i bitch about jaes family. but what i have to remember is that they are maddies family too. and even though i obviosuly play favorites to my own family, id still like maddie to grow up being close to both her moms side and dads side. so i need to chill out... one day of seeing them wont kill me. sometimes petty things arise, but i need to try to overlook quick and not hold a grudge. might be tough sometimes but i tend to make things worse than they really are.

4. To use my SLR camera more. I never use it cuz i lost my SD card reader, but now jae got me a new one so i should really use this camera more.

5. To cook more often. I've never had so much take out in my life. its just gross.

6. To either save more money or spend less.

7. Finish the basement!