Hadn't planned on telling anyone about us trying...but today, my friend Susan emailed me...and at first, I asked her to give me advice on conceiving. and eventually i told her my last 2 months had failed. I felt better after talking to her, and she certainly did lift my spirits. Getting my period had never been so disappointing. It evoked emotions in me I didnt know I had. Telling Jae doesnt quite help either, since I dont believe he can understand what my body and mind are truly feeling. Words cant describe it. But Susan knew. She herself had done IUI...and now has 2 of most gorgeous kids. Their family and marriage is one I always admired. I trust Susan and I know her words will carry me through this. Thank you Susan. I owe you one.