Growing up, i had a ton of books. Massive. my mom was cool like that. But my favorites were always the Shel Silversteins and the Dr. Seuss books.
For my moms funeral, my brother and I each put something of importance in her casket to be buried with. My choice was obvious. I gave her my copy of Dr. Seuss' "Oh the Places we will go". I wrote a little letter on the inside. A lot of people saw it at the funeral and laughed and thought it was a great idea. You just had to know my mom.
I gave her this particular book for many reasons. It reminds me of my childhood. One that she was a huge part of. She was an educator and books were her thing. No matter what, she never denied me a book. She also always told us, we could do whatever we wanted in life. She knew all the places me and my brother could possibly go...and it's that faith that she had in me that gave me my own faith to believe in myself.
You might also remember that in Jae's wedding band, I also inscribed "Oh the places we will go..." inspired from this very book. I wanted Jae to know we had places to go together, too. and the limits were endless. I wanted him to have the faith in us that I did. The same faith my mom gave me.
I MISS HER SO MUCH.
I had given her my only copy, but when I was cleaning through her stuff in the basement, I found another copy. I clearly gave this to the baby. A baby I will also pass this faith onto. See, my mom had a lot of faith. in everything and everyone...so i have a lot of share.
A few weeks ago, I found a great deal on some Dr. Seuss books, so I picked up a few. Coincidentally, weeks before that, I found a good deal on some Dr. Seuss bedding which i also picked up (just the sheet).
I think of Dr. Seuss, and I think of my mom and my childhood. What a great mom and I Can only hope to be just a part of what she was to my own child.
I ask for the strength to pull through this without her, and to raise my child the way she would have wanted me too. I don't want to fail at this. I wish she was here to guide me, but I can only go on the faith she gave me. She said I could do everything I wanted to do. My daughter, the one who will bare her name, is my first true test.
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