officially in the i-look-weird/clothes-dont-fit-right/self-conscious stage right now and its annoying. everything makes me look fat, and nothing fits. i am in between looking fat and preggers. my ass and thighs are expanding and my boobs have shrunk. what is going on?

had 2 bad dreams the past 2 nights. first one there was blood all over my underwear. barefoot contessa (i kid you not) told me to not worry but i should see a doctor asap. she tapped my belly and it made a loud popping sound. weird. second dream, someone in my family passed away. why do i have to dream such bad things? i never remember my dreams. i hope its just baby stuff and not bad omens to come.

new years was very relaxing. i was in albany and all i did was veg on the sofa. it felt nice. when im home, im rarely sitting. always something to do. jae got some much needed rest and we spent it with dave and judy. we ate red robin, dennys, chinese take out and cracker barrel. it was nice.

but today is the 2nd and its back to the daily grind. i am making a pot of homemade chicken soup. i went food shopping, laundry is being washed as i type. jae is back at work and i plan to exercise today as well as clean the house and start taking down some christmas ornaments.

goals for the new year:

eat healthy
exercise more
be more financially responsible
drink actual milk (instead of yoo hoo. ha!)