Mother's Day

I had a nice weekend. Spent Saturday with my grandma. we went to babies r us to shop for a cousins shower. then spent the rest of the afternoon talking to my grandparents. family came over and we had dinner at High Pearl.

Sunday I spent 4 hours cleaning. I have no idea how or why, it just happened. I left to go to the bronx and spent the rest of the night there.

Jae was busy at the store, and due to some drama and issues, he wasn't even able to go see his own mom. I havent seen him in like 3 days.

Spending time with jae's family is always fun. I never had sisters so i feel like i gained 2. i never had nieces or nephews, and i gained 5. Being an aunt is awesome. I assume it's the same as being a grandparent, godparent or just someone really really close to your child. You get the play with them and enjoy them and at the end of the night, you get to give them back. win-win.

Jae's father is a strong man. He is tough but a good father and an even better grandfather. You can see how much he enjoys the kids. When he saw me and saw how big i was, he laughed and got a good kick out of it. He rubbed my belly and said (in english) "my grand daughter!". he was so proud...and he was just so happy he patted me on the butt. He's done this to his daughters before, so i was glad to see he was comfortable enough and felt close enough to add me to the group. he will show my baby a lot of love.

Jae's mom sings korean songs with the kids. she sings and they act it out. its really adorable. i have no idea what the song means but i cant wait to have my little girl singing and dancing with her.

The nephews and nieces are awesome. they are all so different so its fun seeing all the different sides of them. I love being their aunt...i find it to be so fun. I love talking to them and teaching them. I taught Philip how to turn on his skateboard. I taught Ryan how to jump on his butt on the trampoline. I taught Kristen how to make elmo cupcakes. These are small things, but to see their face when they accomplish something is precious. and to know i contributed to that pride is something i will always remember. On mothers day, philip felt the baby kick. It was something I really enjoyed sharing with him. I love when they come up to me and say "aunt jessica, i have a tae kwon do championship on april 23rd...are you coming?". I love when i walk in the door of their house and im instantly attacked with hugs. I love when we get out of a car and Ryan grabs my hand to hold it. These times won't last forever....and I really enjoy cherishing them for as long as they will last.

I remember how sad it was for me when Lauren and Evan both grew out of the young kid stage. They went on to lead their own lives, as nature intended it. But every once in a while, you get a glimpse of the impact you've had on their lives. The day of my shower, Lauren, in the middle of finals sent me a text "Congratulations Jessie! Sorry I couldn't be there for your shower but I have finals. I love you and I hope to see you soon". She's 21 now and graduating college in less than a week. Where has all the time gone?

If it's this hard for me as a cousin or aunt, how much harder will it be for me as a mother?